Hi, I'm New!Hi Everyone,
I'm Ruby and I'm new here. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a couple of months ago. I had been struggling with mood swings and severe episodes of depression and mania since I was 15. When I was 17, I was hospitalized twice and misdiagnosed with schizophrenia. I was in therapy and seeing a psych. for it, but I really didn't feel schizophrenic and the meds made me feel like a zombie. So I did the unrecommended thing and stopped everything. After a period of weirdness, I felt like MY normal self.
I managed for a while, but then I started feeling "crazy" again. I found a new doctor who said that this kind of misdiagnosis can happen sometimes. He put me on a low-dose cocktail, and I feel much better. The violence of the mood swinging is gone and I feel like I can function almost normally. I still don't feel "wonderful," and sometimes I am a little manic or depressed, but I know the signs so it doesn't frighten me as much, and I don't do the "crazy" things I would do before. So, I feel like it's a big improvement.
I hold down a full-time job and I'm married. The bipolar disorder does affect my marriage, but my husband and I work on it. He is very supportive, and I love the fact that he loves me in spite of this thing. We do not have any children yet. We want them, but I am afraid right now. I don't want to raise children if I'm not balanced enough.
Anyway, that is my story. Thanks for reading! I hope to make some new friends soon. I would love to be able to talk about these things with other people who understand.