Depressed and Stressed

I struggle everyday to walk out of my house. I feel ugly. I have had  suicidal thoughts, often. I, recently, was diagnosed with major depression which I believe is a branch of the panic disorder/generalized anxiety and body dysmorphic disorder. I have not been diagnosed with bdd yet by a doctor, but it doesn't take a genius to realize that there is something not right about how I feel about my overall appearance. I have several areas of body that I focus on the most including my hair, skin, stomach, eyes, nose, lips, and forehead. I spend a lot of time in the mirror focusing on all of the imperfections of my hair and generally wear it up to avoid drawing attention to myself during the day, because my high school students notice everything. That makes it even more hard when they jokingly make comments about my hair, like "Why don't you ever wear your hear down?" and when I do..."It makes your face look too square."...All of those comments cloud my mind, and the least little bit of judgment sends me into a downward spiral. If the wind blows my hair or my forehead is exposed in any way (the reason I do not have my hair done anymore), I have a lot of anxiety/panic/worthless/ugly feelings. I feel that one of my eyes is larger than the other, and when I look in the mirror I feel like the larger eye looks to the left and they are too droopy making me look tired and even uglier. My nose has a bump on it. My profile is horrible, even though I think my left side is better than my right. I avoid sitting with my right side exposed in restaurants, and I also avoid bright lights beaming down above me. I will move to another table, because it makes me feel like all of my imperfections are showing. This is just a little insight into the world that I face every day. It is terrible and keeps me in constant worry and feeling susceptible to judgment 24/7. I am paranoid, have suicidal thoughts, depressed, anxious, and worrysome on a constant basis. My doctor recommended me to a psychiatrist, so I should be visiting this person soon...should be interesting...I hope he can help, because I don't know what I will do otherwise. I feel crazy. It is hard for me to do my job, and I have lost interest in so many things that I used to love doing...it is heart-wrenching. I feel trapped, and I want to get out of this and start enjoying life again! I am tired of my image, anxiety, and depression controlling my life!!!!!!! I want out!