Its So Hard But You Can Deal With It

im only sixteen but theyre sure i have it. im in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. it helps so much. the hardest part of bpd is relationships. i wish i could have a boyfriend so bad. i want to feel loved by someone. and i get so afraid that someone id be hooking up with and thinking we could potentially date but my reactions are horrible and i push them away. then i accuse them of using me. i even texted all the guys i felt that used me when i overdosed and completely blamed them for it. i just wish that i didnt have this disorder. but im trying really hard with this new therapy. and when i go to college i want to become a therapist and do DBT.

but god somedays are so unbearable and i feel so hopeless. but these days dont come by as often and im glad for that. i make through each day and take my medications and trying.

you need to want to get better
emcgarry emcgarry
18-21
1 Response Jul 19, 2010

Please do not go for something that does not feed your spirit, body, and mind in a healthy, sustainable way. This life is short and what our parents did not teach us is how to make the most of this life. By creating a strong, protective, and sustainable Self Love you can stop looking at and holding on to situations that cannot sustain your life efforts. You can get your life and control of that life back.<br />
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It starts by learning to Love the Breath of Life & Love within you. It also means protecting the Temple ( your body) of your life and spirit because of that Love. <br />
Once you learn how to Love yourself from the inside out .. not the outside in nothing will ever again make you risk yourself for such a small or nothing return. Your new self Love will give you the safety, Love and Protection like no other enity on Earth can give you. This will put you in control of yourself, your life and your life situations. <br />
Hugs and Much Love, livingwell