I Only Want Strangers In My LifeI hurt everyone that gets close to me. I now have changed my phone, cut everyone off of my Facebook. The only member in my family that cares is my son in prison and I send him money and he refuses to even check into my illness. Some people believe it's a farce, if they had it they sure wouldn't think that. My daughter has cut me off plus I am not allowed to see my grandchildren.
I have been married three times; 28 years, 1 year, and 8 years. They are all my fault, I'm sure. I lost my best friend the other day over a guy she has known less than a month! She has a mental illness and we have been there for each other even thru suicide attempts.
I am not playing a pity party. These are things that happen to people with this disorder everyday. I see a therapist and a phys. I have a caseworker and it still doesn't help! They say, I am so high functioning I am good on my own. For the last years I have no idea how many times I have tried to kill myself and my caseworker keeps my meds but they feel I am so high functioning that I don't need help!
At this point I do not want to become or be around anyone that wants to socialize with me. The bad part is. I am out going and people find it easy to talk to me. If there is anyone that wants to write about their experiences please do.
May God Speed