How Many Times

How many times do you have to tell someone that you want to die before they take you seriously? I found out last night that if you don't have a plan, you can tell them as much as you want, and they'll still send you home.

I went to the hospital when I started feeling suicidal, before I had thought about a plan, thinking I would be proactive.

I told a bunch of nurses and doctors there that I just wanted to die, that I felt like I had no reason to live, like my life has no meaning. When they asked if I had a plan, I said no, no real plan, but a few ideas how it might happen.

They never even asked what my ideas were. They told me that I should see an outpatient psychiatrist and see their community support team. I don't understand how that is supposed to help me right now.

I didn't even get to see a psychiatrist to talk about it.

Aren't they going to be embarrassed when I show up in the morgue...
thatgirl85 thatgirl85
26-30, F
May 14, 2012