Wide Awake

I can't sleep. I'm out of sleeping pills, and my anxiety meds, because i decided to swallow them all on saturday night. My mom got frustrated with me and I didn't handle it very well.

I feel like my brain is going a mile a minute, and my heart is about to explode. I feel so lost. So alone. Like I'll never see anyone ever again. I almost want to call my mom just to hear someone's voice.

There's a part of me that really wishes my parents didn't care so much about me. I know I worry them, and it breaks my heart, but I know they'd be heartbroken if I died.

Sorry this is so depressing. I wish I had something more positive to say.
thatgirl85 thatgirl85
26-30, F
1 Response May 22, 2012

There are so many people that love you. More than you know. Stay strong. And DON'T apologize. It's chemicals in your brain, not a choice! People are just scared of what they don't know.