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Does anyone feel embarrassed about having Borderline Personality Disorder? I do at times, I just want to be "normal". I'm a 23 year old female.
XJustThatGirlX XJustThatGirlX 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 6, 2012

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Yes i getembarrassed alot because of bpd its a pain to deal with and " normal people " just dont understand me it sucks i wish i could be more stable

I understand exactly how you feel! I was diagnosed 4 years ago and have only just recently told a couple of people. I guess i was so embarrassed that people would think that i was crazy. The funny thing is that the few people i told were quite understanding and willing to help me. The best thing you can do is just accept it and focus on working on getting yourself better, because sometimes it really does help having someone close to talk to about it.

I am 15 and I have BPD , I find it embarrassing because I read an articale about how hard it is to be in a good relationship with a borderline . And I was also sexually abused when I was little , when I choose to tell people sometimes they laugh . They think it's funny that I get easily hurt , or they think I'm Lying and just wanting attention . I was diagnosed over a year ago and I am just now accepting it . I feel very alone and a misfit everywhere... Even in my family I don't fit in . BPD is hard to deal with but it can be manageable . Think of yourself as just more passionate than others . You aren't alone (:

I have ptsd too! I was molested as a child, which is where I think the BPD comes from

Oh honey, I am 44...I was told 20 years ago that I had that as well as PTSD. I would never tell anyone about the BPD. I only admitted it to myself recently. I feel so humiliated and embarrassed by it. I want to be normal too! It is just something we are going to have to share when we finish processing it ourselves... I am talking to my Mom about it tomorrow (she already knows she just hasn't talked about it) and I am going to a hospital specifically for BPD, I still don't want anyone else to know! It seems shameful! I know that isn't logical, but I blamed everything on PTSD rather than acknowledge BPD (to myself) and have lost 20 years of my life to denial....I just want to be normal too, and please, accept the fact and move on it now...do what you need to do, so that you can enjoy the life you were given. Trust me...you don't want to look back 20 years later and see nothing but a broken bridge behind you!

I am 32. I was diagnosed a year ago and have been in dialectical behavioral therapy since.
I too feel embarrassed and ashamed often. The feeling is so immensely powerful, so diffiicult to bear.
It is such a dialect- that I can be competent in one are and totally ******* crazy in another. I think I am ashamed because of this. And its really difficult.
I feel lonely and different, which makes me more ashamed.
At the same time, I'm working harder than I ever have. I refuse to deprive myself of a life worth living. I have fsaith that this will get better. I know how messy and embaressing it looks on the outside, but those few momments of clarity bring so much encouragement.
Hang in there, at least you are not alone in your feelings <3

21 not 32 lol