Isamars Secret Love Life

About 2 years ago, i started having a serious relationship. It was fun at first, laughing and having a good time, then we started with the sex but this person made me feel conftrable so it was fine. I got more attached with the sex, but the first time i did it were for the wrong reasons, because i dindt want this one to leave me like the rest. Then after i got emotionally attached i started getting jelous of their exes and every girl, but i think it was because of the bpd, which i didnt know bout yet. I started over doing everything and i was running this person away, i was hurting them. Then we got into a big arguement about my jelousy, this peraon was angry so they said lots of stuf i didnt want to hear. So here comes the bad part, i went home nd tried to overdose, it was a selfish act but i didnt want to live. My mom took me to the hospital and well afterwards i got hospitalized for about a week, had messed up part of my heart and my body would shake so i stayed there for a while. I felt worser because i had a broken heart at that, i went to the mentl hospital as well. I thought this person didnt care but when i got out they were waiting for me, this person changed and well here comes another bad part i started drinking, i started acting different, this person started to fall for me and i did another selfish act and hurted them again with lying in their face. i started falling in love more and more while this person was too hurt. Ive lost my chance i think with their heart, see im in love and this person isnt.Theres more than this to say but there will be a part 2.