I Have Borderline Personality Disorder
Hello,
For the past x-number of years I have been experiencing various degrees of "psychotic" issues. Like being convinced my best friend was hired by my mom to kill me in my sleep. Or that devils were poisoning the water. These were troublesome, but they passed quickly.
What I "struggle" with on a more frequent basis has to do with talking to myself, not out loud. It kind of goes like this: someone that is real, like my friend, or my therapist, will ask me a question and I will answer it. This is in my head, remember. I will answer it elaborately, "feeling" myself talking in my own head to this person. They may or may not ask follow up questions. It is often annoying, frustrating and draining. Is this normal for people? I understand everyone talks to themselves, but I read that it is usually things like, "ok you can do this" or "first you have to go downtown, then the bank, etc". I don't think I've met anyone who is asked questions by people in their head and then often has a running conversation with them.
I also too frequently experience this sensation that feels like the entire fabric of reality is being shaken by an existential earth quake and my whole perceived world, in its fragile order, is about to just break into a million little pieces. Has anyone ever experienced this? Or heard about it? Please help me.
If anyone can shed any light whatsoever onto this subject, we would be very grateful (ha).
For the past x-number of years I have been experiencing various degrees of "psychotic" issues. Like being convinced my best friend was hired by my mom to kill me in my sleep. Or that devils were poisoning the water. These were troublesome, but they passed quickly.
What I "struggle" with on a more frequent basis has to do with talking to myself, not out loud. It kind of goes like this: someone that is real, like my friend, or my therapist, will ask me a question and I will answer it. This is in my head, remember. I will answer it elaborately, "feeling" myself talking in my own head to this person. They may or may not ask follow up questions. It is often annoying, frustrating and draining. Is this normal for people? I understand everyone talks to themselves, but I read that it is usually things like, "ok you can do this" or "first you have to go downtown, then the bank, etc". I don't think I've met anyone who is asked questions by people in their head and then often has a running conversation with them.
I also too frequently experience this sensation that feels like the entire fabric of reality is being shaken by an existential earth quake and my whole perceived world, in its fragile order, is about to just break into a million little pieces. Has anyone ever experienced this? Or heard about it? Please help me.
If anyone can shed any light whatsoever onto this subject, we would be very grateful (ha).
By:
ceilingdrippings
Age:
22-25
,
Male
