Wanna Chat?

Somedays, like today, I hate have this. I just want to be normal. I want to have thick skin and not be so psycho when dating as well. I have found such a great man however. two days ago he made one comment that hurt my feelings. I have spent two days in depression, wanting to cut wanting to push him away and pull him closer at the same time if that makes sense. I hate being so vunerable. One comment destroyed my world. Who reacts like this? I know its the BPD but I just wish I could be 'normal'. Does anyone want to chat??
Nupi Nupi
26-30, F
3 Responses Sep 16, 2012

i will chat, i know you wrote this awhile back ago, but i can relate. i just pushed him away last night. And im telling myself its better this way becouse he is holding me back from fixing myself( if thats even possible) but i feel so damn alone its hard not to run back to just have someone.
I hate you.. wait.. come back.. hold me.. i dont like the way you hold me.. go away. i hate this. normal ppl dont act this way. they are content with what they have. But i always feel like i want more. sighs... i just want to be happy.

P.s : Know this : YOU ARE LOVEABLE , you are 'normal' and you will come out of this depression.
Also BPD can be a harmful and hurtful label as well as a helpful one....

Love and light .

Yes honey. I understand the pain is unbearable . No one gets it do they ? I want to be normal too.
My day has been crap . I wish I could help but I'm in a deep well of anger and depression myself this minute :( but trust me when im feeling better I'm gonna post back.... HUGS x