At The Moment

at the moment hell is beginning to break loose.....my kids are at cadets,,,my other is at school still...I have told my partner I want to separate....for good this time.again....she doesnt take me serious and hasnt for some time...we just tip toe around like every thing is ok.....how can she not feel what isnt there anymore.......im tired of being used as the escape goat for her own ****......lets twist things and blame it on the BPD head case...let guilt trip her into caving in and crawl back like it was all me to begin with.....
I maybe ****** up in the head but I am working damn hard to do my best and get the help i need to live a full and peaceful happy life.....yes i have insecurities yes i can over react...yes yes yes to alot of things but i know it....and trying to make it better....
what doesnt help is when your partner has a booze issue and drugs.......but thats my fault too....

so im here typing my fustrations and she is in the kitchen yelling and slamming stuff around.....
Bodaciouslybeautiful Bodaciouslybeautiful
36-40, F
Sep 19, 2012