Im Someone Else

Im just not who I was anymore
and I hate that I love the new me.
drugs, men, danger.

It's just not me
Or is it

I don't know

After two bad relationships, two horrible heartbreaks, I still want to get in there, have someone love me, adore me, even though I know i'll screw it up with them
and now its all about the bad boys and the drugs and...It keeps me happy! But the guilt!

Ugh
Yorkebaby Yorkebaby
18-21, F
3 Responses Dec 9, 2012

Message me if you ever need to talk. I understand that longing to loved. I have had bpd for a very long time and have never met someone else with it so I hope that I can help you if and when you need it

Thank you so much!
God bless
x

You can do it! Please message me if you would ever like to. Xoxo

Thank you! :)

I was your age when my impulsivness was out of control. Drinking, spending, promiscuity, drugs, anything. I have ruined some of the best relationships I have had and burned soo many bridges. I pushed everyone away because I felt they would leave eventually, i had already made a mess of the relationship or just feeling overwhelmed. But always, underneath the shell I had, I wanted to be loved by someone. I used to attach myself to people, but when my idea of that person would change and I got hurt, I was crushed and it took forever to get over it. Now I just appreciate the pleasant things about everyone, and set no individual standards so I cant be let down. Hang in there!

Im going through the exact same thing right now.
Thank you
God bless
x