Left Alone At Home

My nieces who are being raised by mom just had their tonsils out a few weeks ago. 8 year old Julia has been spitting up and coughing up bright red blood. So my mom called the doctor again, a surgeon in Denver, and he wants to see Julia right away. So I will be at home alone for awhile. I hate being left alone, I fear it. I know theyre coming back and Im 26 and more than capable of taking care of myself.

I know borderlines fear abandonment and being alone, and knowing its a real symptom of a real mental illness helps to deal with it. Its irrational but I cant help myself. My anxiety is rising and I need to calm myself down and keep busy. I am just thankful for yesterday when I actually felt like myself and got up and stayed busy and stayed up till 11 and slept soo good for the first time in a long time.
tmarker86 tmarker86
26-30, F
2 Responses Dec 12, 2012

leaving for a walk, will be back

How motivating! Good for you

i like it, feeling good after reading it.

Im so glad! Gotta stay positive. Thanks!