What Did I Do To Deserve This Curse?

Again I had a BPD episode thanks to my stupid OCD. Everything has to be perfect, everything has to go the way that is proposed, I CAN NEVER be flexible. This little episode left me with bruises all over my arm because I would just hit myself with the wall.
Why is it so hard to get better?
I want to believe I'm not crazy, but IDK what I am.Normal people don't react like this.
I just want to be a normal person, I don't want to go around the world, showing my cuts and bruises. I am NOT weak, but how is it that this THING called BPD can ruin everything in just 5 mins.
betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3
26-30, F
Jan 5, 2013