Today I had to go to the doctor. I have had mild symptoms for a while but since my miscarriage things have gotten worse. I've started cutting worse..closing all the curtains and locking the door...getting mad for no reason...and starving myself. I've lost 10lbs this past week and my parents finally noticed. They gave me two choices..doctor..or hospital. I chose my doctor and he sent me to the mental health clinic for an emergency evaluation. My new therapist and my old shrink talked while I was there and together they thought that BPD wasn't the only thing going on with me. They told me I also have Major Depressive Disorder..I've never heard of it. I didn't know you could have more than one disorder. So now my lorazepam dose has risen and since it's illegal for my pcp to write dangerous scripts I have to wait until I can see the psychologist to get my new meds which I was told will be lithium again...which I guess is okay since they helped before. I'm not complaining or looking for attention...I just needed to get that out.