I Miss My Boyfriend...

     My boyfriend and I have been together for a little over 2 years now. I am head-over-heels for the man. Even though we argue, I still love him and I can't see myself with anyone else. He was just transferred to prison yesterday from county jail because of a parole violation. I hate going through this but I do it because I love him. This time it's going to be really hard because I don't think he's going to be able to make any phone calls. Before he was always sent to county jails, this time it's prison. :( I hope he gets to use the phones. I know he's going to write me though, and I told him that I'll come visit. But sometimes all you need is just one phone call so you can hear his voice. Just being able to talk to hear him makes me feel better, especially when I have my own problems going on.
     I hope he's ok in there. The last phone call I had with him was not good. His mom was mad at him for waking her up, I was mad at him because he kept having me call people for him and by the time me and him actually got to talk, the call got cut off because the time was over. I didn't get to say bye, or I love you. He knows that I love him but I know that when he's locked up, he needs to hear it more than once so that he feels better. He had told me last week that some guys in there were talking about how their girls had cheated on them or left them because they were in jail. He's always worried that I'm going to do something like that to him. I'm not. I would never do that to him, especially if he's locked up.
     This whole situation is hard. I know it's not going to last forever though...I just want it all to be over. I wish he was off parole already. I try not to let it bring me down but it's hard. Sometimes I just want to hide away in my room and not have to worry about anyone or anything. I try to be strong for him because he doesn't really have anyone there for him except his mom and me. I love him so much, and that's what keeps me going. I know things will get better.  Everything happens for a reason right? I've always believed that...I don't know what the reason is now but I do know that each and every day me and him make it through this, we grow a little stronger both as individuals and as a couple.

18-21, F
1 Response Apr 27, 2010

From what i've heard prison is preferable to county jail. My boyfriend just got transferred to a county jail after his sentencing (for a parole violation as well) and he has 20 hour lockdown everyday. I get annoyed because I have to make phone calls and do errands for him on the outside too, but I know he would do it for me. Anyway, your man is very lucky to have someone who clearly loves him so deeply. In the future this will all be a memory that made our relationships stronger and sweeter.