I Was Tearing It Down...

Right now in this moment.... I don't know what to think or do.

Someone I care for deeply has been hurt by two others that I care for deeply.

It's finally taking a toll on me, everything I've been told and have read. i can't handle it.

A couple I met here. They are amazing people. They were the happiest people I'd seen or so I thought. Now it looks as though they are getting divorced because of someone they made friends with on here.

My heart hurts.... one reason is... seeing them gave me hope. Gave that little girl inside of me the insecure scared little girl that great marriages do exist, gave me hope that I will fall in love one day and I will get married and be with someone til I'm old and grey. In one day, their marriage fell apart and I was there for the wife, she's my friend and she got her heart ripped out. After speaking today, I find out lies that I've been told. Now I feel heartbroken and stabbed in the back.

I trusted him, told him so many things, but now I don't know what was the truth from him. I feel like I'm going back in fourth between what he helped me learn and what's going on now. I don't want to ruin the progress I've made with trust, it's just ironic, the person who gave me so much hope, gave me so much reason to try with people.....he's the one who hurt me the most so far.

I'm being selfish to some degree in writing this, but I don't want to sit around tonight in tears. Cried and cried and I can't cry anymore. I feel numb and hurt.
Feeling stuck in the middle of my best friend, and the girl he's in love with and his wife. I care for them all and it is all too much.

Each of them know so much, i trusted the guy especially. He was my best friend. Told him secrets and things that have been hard for me to come to terms with for years.

I can't write anymore right now Just feeling heartbroken for the wife.
and hurting for myself, due to the fact that I'm now hearing about so many lies
Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious
26-30, F
Jan 15, 2013