Gag Me With a Spoon!

I love to eat, but I also love to look sexy. I began a diet and exercise program two and a half months ago and lost 12 lbs by eating small frequent meals, cardio and weight training, etc. As the pounds dropped off, my confidence has skyrocketed and I get so many advances and so much attention from guys and I love it.

But my confidence is turning into fear. I will do anything it takes to keep the weight off and keep losing more. I only make myself puke if I eat something unhealthy. It's such a gross habit. I feel angry at myself for eating the food in the first place, then I just feel pathetic puking it up, but once it's over with, I feel okay, sometimes even proud in some sick way.

The worst part about this is I consider myself an expert in the field of fitness and nutrition. But unfortunately I don't always practice what I preach.
SWATgirl SWATgirl
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 3, 2007

...this sounds like orthorexia. Either way it's not good,