Can't Think Of A Tittle For This One (:This entry might seem little weird as I interviewed myself while writing it and oh well I decided that I want to share MY THOUGHTS this way so here we go.
What can I say regarding this matter? It’s relaxing; it gives an amazing feeling after you are done throwing up what you have eaten. Then the feeling of being hungry afterwards is kinda sorta awesome. Plus, it's a nice way to release tension.
Do I do it to get thinner? No I don’t, or maybe. I have never ever felt fat in my life. Not until everyone around me and on TV started nagging about their weight. So I got myself into this thing and then I noticed that whenever I stood in front of the mirror after throwing up, I would feel “proud”.
Am I blaming the society? Not at all, although I said previously that I got encouraged due to people’s nagging and blah blah, but let’s face it I’m 19 years old and I can totally tell the difference between what’s right and wrong.
So is it my fault? Oh well of course it is I mean duh but I mostly blame the free times/holidays because if I have nothing to do all the demonic thoughts start invading my head and that makes doing stupid things very tempting. Therefore, I’m trying to look for a summer job to keep myself busy.
Do I have something to add? Yes I do, I’m not as severe as the cases I have read on this group. Also, I think I can control it as I don’t throw up everything I eat. Finally, I’m not extremely thin at all despite me throwing up so don’t imagine a skeleton typing this.
Aikenoo 18-21, F 6 Responses 3 May 20, 2012