I've always had body issues...i was always the small petite girl, but never could accept that..always felt fat..at 21 I had my son and put on some weight..then I was always the fat girl..so depressing..My 3 brothers were always bringing their cute girlfriends around and my husband didn't want to touch me anymore...When I had snuck up behind him on the scales and noticed i outweighed him by 20lbs I freaked out!! I was 150lbs and 5'1". Really something needed to be done..by this point I was pissed at my self and was going to do something reguardless..I had seen plenty of shows and documentaries on bulimia so the habits were easy to pick up on..I Freakin' loved it!! I could have my cake and eat it too!! At first I could control it, bindging and purging up to 5 times a day!! that's a lot of groceries..well I finally got to my goal weight of 115(in 3 months), but wanted to push it a little more..110 came, 105, 100, then 95...i couldn't stop..if i ate more than 3 bites of food, it had to go!! finally I got to a point I was scared to eat..so I guess that's the Anorexia part..scared to eat because I'm scared I won't stop then the purging starts again...I finally reached out to family as I couldn't hide my 55lb weight loss that well...They moved me closer to them and tried to watch me..and I guess for a while it worked off and on..not as many eppisodes..i put on 25lbs in 5 months...but now, here I am again..I am scared to death to eat!! In the last week, I've maybe had 800 calories, most of that being liquids..i've dropped 14lbs in less than 2 weeks...I'm always sad, alone, shakey, and sick..its not fun...at the same time while I am scared to eat, my body physically doesn't even want it, I also don't really want to stop..