I Thought I Could Control It...

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The New Psychology of Depression

by Oxford University

Podcast on iTunes



Description



We live in a world filled with material wealth, live longer and healthier lives, and yet anxiety, stress, unhappiness, and depression have never been more common. What are the driving forces behind these interlinked global epidemics? In this series, Professor Mark Williams (Wellcome Trust Principal Research Fellow at Oxford University) and Dr Danny Penman discuss the recent scientific advances that have radically altered our understanding of depression and related disorders. Also discussed is the latest treatments and therapies that are offering hope to those suffering from depression. Professor Williams co-developed Mindfulness-based Cognitive Therapy (MBCT), a treatment for anxiety, stress and depression that is at least as effective as drugs at preventing new episodes of depression. It's now one of the preferred treatments for depression recommended by the UK's National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence. The same technique, based upon an ancient form of meditation, can also help us cope more effectively with the relentless demands of our increasingly frantic world. Professor Williams and Dr Penman co-authored the bestselling book Mindfulness: Finding Peace in a Frantic World.

I'm sorry you're going through this. It sounds awful. I haven't actually been where you are but I've been depressed enough to not eat for weeks, sick enough to be shaky, weak. To feel as if my body was moving through wet cement and not air.

From what I understand eating disorders are continued not because you want to be thin but from the sense of control/power you achieve. This feels as if it's the only thing you have control of...until it becomes a "norm" and takes on a life of its own . Then the real reason pops out again and you fear eating because you'll lose control AGAIN.

Fear is actually underneath all this. Did you know that it is a cause of depression as well? Repressed feelings such as fear, anger, shame, guilt, etc...can cause all sorts of compulsions. The thing is, feelings want to be felt. They are trapped energy within your body. If you don't feel them but stuff them down with food, they build pressure and become a bomb. They blow away your life, yourself, your love. Those same suppressed feelings, stuffed down by food or will power, will also cause you to not feel anything anymore. This manifest in depression, cutting, self destruction. All so you can FEEL something..You've probably already heard all this before, but it's not bullsht

I have a podcast I recommend for you. I have no connection to this person, no reason to promote him. But he has a way for you to start feeling again. It can be a tough road but it's also the simplest I've found. I'll send it to you via private message. I hope this helps. I wish you a good life of freedom from this cycle.

I have experienced as you have going from one extreme to the next.



i would watch your carbohydrate intake which is what tends to put on the pounds.



An trying to eat three health food plates a day instead of binge purging.

The secrete is calorie intake vs burn. It's not majic. Do you work out, have a high metabolism? Eat 5 times a day but small amounts and eat healthy. Avoid hard alcohol, a little Red wine is okay. You are 5'1", 100lbs is perfect for you. You are also beautiful in your picture if I may say so.



xoxo,

5'4", 105 lbs

I know that bulimia is so bad but i just really want to be thisn i look in the mirror and im discusted by my weight im 16 and i weigh 230 i cant loose it so i dont know what else to do

start slow, it takes baby steps to reach your goals

Im feeling the same way you are Right now. I have been doing so good but now it's like I'm spiraling back down. Scared to eat. I know how you feel