Scared

I recently moved to a new country. Some people here are insensitive, and ignorant of what they say. In fact, only yesterday did a little kid ask her mother why I was so fat. And a week ago, a different mother and daughter duo talked about my "thunder thighs" 3 feet behind me. I don't blame them though. It was how they were raised, and they don't know a thing about me. How I battled with binge and bulimia for over 5 years. How I was left obese and is steadily losing weight in a healthy and slow manner. It's just that these instances pull me back to the bathroom floor, crying, terrified that I might end up in the hospital again. I am so afraid of what I might do. I want to go home. I want to sleep and never get up again. I'm not sure if I can do this. I am so sick of this ugly, fat body.
willowtree64 willowtree64
18-21
Dec 12, 2012