Breaking A Habit

Ever since my fiancé asked me to be his I haven’t purged . We have been engaged since December.25th, 2012. I’m 17, and I will be 18 on Aug.26th, 2013. My fiancé will be 18 April 10th, 2013. We live in different states  . I live in PA and he lives in VA. We met when I was in 7th grade and he was my first boyfriend , we reconnected after id moved out of my dads and into my moms 3years later … our engagement was quick because we both knew this was true love <3 . He asked me to be his girlfriend December 21st and just a few days later on the 25th he asked me to marry him when I came down to see my dad for Christmas..  I said YES ! I haven’t seen him since but we txt and tlk on the phone every day , we plan on getting married on my birthday and he is going to drive up to PA to pick me up once I turn 18 so I can live with him . He graduates this June and I unfortunately am still a junior. BUT – I’m going to finish up high school in VA which is kind of a bonus for me because I won’t have to take chemistry which I suck at…lol . He is the most amazing , kind , sweet , caring , loving , most amazing guy (I know I said amazing twice lol ) I’ve ever met . I can’t even put into words how much I love him , I never thought I could love someone so much. He makes me feel pretty even when I don’t feel like it  I know with his help I can stop purging and my binge eating habits . I know it will take time because believe me not seeing him is a killer and I get the urge to purge sometimes. But I can’t bring myself to do it…. <3 I LOVE YOU BABY!
ashleyyysmilesss ashleyyysmilesss
18-21, F
Jan 23, 2013