When It Started...

i started to make myself throw up at age thirteen. I wanted to feel in control of something. i soon found out that i didn't even have control over that. that made things very hard on me. I hid it very well, or my mom just refused to know i was doing it. (i think the later is probably more true) I am 25 and i still struggle with the same thing. trying not to eat my feelings and upon realizing the vileness that i just emotionally ate, i would make it come back up.


scarlettered scarlettered
22-25, F
Feb 9, 2009