Does Therapy Really Help???
Hey everyone! I have been struggling with this ugly disorder for over 5 years now. What has started so innocently has turned me into a total recluse over the last year.
I have been battling this thing on and off for the last 3 years, with some success after which the lows would almost kill me adn what scares me now is that these lows are getting lower and lower each time..if that makes sense.
I have recently moved in to a new city for school and it has been 5 months and I havnet even gone xploring the sights or made any friends. I've no absolutely no energy,self-esteem or self-belief left whatsoever..Im just soooo tired of this desease, I know now that if I dont get it under control I will die.
My teeth are breaking, recently i have started having chest and kidney pains and Im constantly bloated.
All of the above is the result of me trying to beat my bulimia by stopping throwing up. I figured- doesnt matter if I get fat, I WILL NOT PURGE AGAIN!!
And I am happy to say that in the last 5 months I have only done it around 10 times. Which is great, BUT I still eat enormous amounts of food with no control. U know how it is-u just stuff yourself without even feeling the taste...its horrible. I have gained 16 kgs...it's killing me.
All this has made want to get professional help, I am exhausted in every way. Im 22 and feel like I havent even done anything this year...its a scary thought..I want to be normal. GOD< I WANT TO BE NORMAL!!
Isn't it heartbreaking watching people ENJOY their lives?? I want to be like them...
So yea, has anyone had therapy for bulimia? Has it worked?? What does it entails? Any information aand esp personal experiences from you guys would be AWESOME!!
PS Feels great to kinda let this out in the "open" for the first time in my life...to know that i am not alone. Great site:))