Well Here It Goes...

This is my first time ever telling anyone about this problem. I've always been aware of my body and weight. I've been binging and purging pretty much daily since I was 13 years old, I'm now 19. No one knows, or even has a clue. Not my family, or my friends, not even my boyfriend of 3 years. I have suffered no negative side effects, I think that's the main reason why I can't stop. It has worked at controlling my weight, my teeth are perfect and so it my heart. I'm scared that I wont be able to stop until I do face some consequence, because as of now its been nothing but helpful. I purge 3 times on an average day, after every meal. I keep as little food in as possible. Its gotte to the point that I can not handle feeling full, it makes me sick and drives me crazy until I do get rid of the food. I know its unhealth but i cant stop.

livlove livlove
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

The consequences suck. I have been bulimic for five years and my heart skips beats, my teeth are overly sensitive, and my throat hurts all the time. Sometimes even my insides will hurt, but I still can't stop being bulimic. Just because you get the side effects doesn't mean you will stop. I know this for a fact. Try other ways.. like therapy? I really don't know what to say except that you shouldn't wait to stop until you are damaged.

I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL , I HATE FEELING FULL AND HAVING THE IDEA OF FOOD BEING DIGESTED AND MAKING ME FAT , MY BF AND FAMILY HAVE NO CLUE BUT I AM SCARE DOF THE COSEQUENCES AS WELL