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Cervical Cancer

I have Cervical cancer, and this is my second bout with it

I am having a hystromectony hoping to have it all removed

what is worse , is that while I suffer through this , I though I had someone who cared for me , he has been a friend for over a year ,

 but I guess not a true frind , 6 months ago we agreed to have more but still keep it as friends ,

 two months ago I suddenly realized I had feelings for him and just in the past while may love him,

I told him how I was feeling and have not talked to him since??

I did ask why and what was so wrong with me??

still nothing but a email , and he made me think it was all my fault and I started it all

not I hurt even more because I need his support through all this

my only wish is that he chances and takes the chance with me as he will never regret it if he does

 thanks for letting me spill me feelings out

retrogirl44 retrogirl44 41-45, F 13 Responses Sep 27, 2007

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hang in there,this person doesnt need you and you dont need him<br />
I understand your pain,as I am there too,I have a loving wife that has been by my side thru this<br />
But I am going thru the want to do this and that before I go,and this causes her pain

ha ha! ^-^ i'd rather not go through all that. it doesn't seem fun to me!<br />
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i always do! i dunno what the latter of the statement means

AH XC to each their own way of ex<x>pression I guess? I learn to understand there are so many different ppl out there and we all suffer in different way<br />
I dont see it as sucking for me ..im a survivor ..why ..because I DIDNT let cancer bring me down ! <br />
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you take care XC and blessed be :)

sucks for you! >.< glad it's not me :D enjoy yourself

I know what you are going through. I am a cancer survivor myself. I had uterine cancer. I had a total hysterectomy. It was four years this July. I had a husband who really didn't care what I was going through. Needless to say, we are now divorced.<br />
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My advice to you is to concentrate on getting yourself better. It's a long trip back until you feel like yourself again. You don't need anyone in your life that is not supportive of you now and what you are going through. Just keep your spirits up and count on the people who really love you to be by your side.<br />
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If you like, I will be happy to talk to you and let you know how I got through it.<br />
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Good luck and all the best to you. Remember, we, as women are very strong and you can do it, just as I did.

I think everyone needs support...Sorry to hear what you are going through..I have devoted my life to cancer support..I'm a 15 year survivor and have offered support to thousands of people..Check out my amazing newsletter. Just might help<br />
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Travis

SORRY ABOUT YOUR CANCER.. IT HURTS ME, AND EVERYONE. I READ YOUR STORY. IF HE REALLY CARED ABOUT YOU HE WOULD BE THERE FOR YOU, WHEN YOU REALLY NEEDED HIM. YOU BOTH SAID YOU WANTED MORE,BUT STILL JUST BE FRIENDS. NOW YOU ONLY GET E- MAIL SAYING IT IS YOUR FAULT.<br />
DUMP THE BASTERD!!!! ( SORRY FOR THAT)..GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE, HE DOES NOT CARE ABOUT YOU (EXCEPT FOR SEX.) HE WAS NOT THERE!!!.. GET OVER IT!! FIND SOMEONE ELSE---YHEA. I KNOW IT IS HARD-- JUIST DO IT. HOPE THE HYSTROMECTONY WORKED.<br />
HAY!!!!! YOU STILL HAVE FRIENDS HERE. LOVE YA!! VETRO

im sorry about the cancer!

congratulations! You're on your way! The prayers will continue for comfort and ease during your post surgery treatments. Granny

I have some good news .. well the best of the good part ... they have been able to get it all... still a long road ahead .. but at least the worse is over :)<br />
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thank you so much for the support messages .. ive not been in a while with all thats been going on ...I feel so blessed <br />
again thanks :))

I'm sorry about your cancer. I am in remission from stage three colon cancer. I have just past my 2nd anniversary even though they gave me 44 percent survival. I know how much it hurts (from experience) to be ignored when you need the support the most. I have my daughter and grand daughter thank God! Some others think the cancer journey is getting too much attention. Some people like cancer support groups others find them not helpful. I pray you will soon have good friends worthy of your friendship. I pray someone special comes into your life to give you support and comfort. Grannygoose

I'm sorry about the cancer diagnosis. I had a LEEP in August for a bad spot of cells, and they got it all, but the repap I had done two weeks ago came back carcinoma in situ. I, too, am looking at having a hysterectomy to get ahead of this before it gets invasive.<br />
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I agree with the other commenter--you need to take care of yourself first. Either your friend got freaked out and will come back to you, or he was never really there for you in the first place.<br />
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Take care.

I'm sorry about the cancer, I'm going through radiation as I just had a Lumpectomy for breast cancer. I know the feeling of lonelienss and helplessness that cancer brings. I have my children as I lost my husband to cancer over two years ago, but you know I think back now and even though I was there every step of the way holding my husbands hand this is really something that you and you alone are going through, family ,friends all feel for you , worry about you help in any way they can, but bottom line its you. Get yourself strong and know in your heart you will beat this, do all you can do to fight this incidious decease. Retro, your friendship has got to come in second place here, get yourself strong and healthy first. If your friend doesn't show support in your time of need than what have you really lost? He will have shown himself to be not worthy as a friend. My thoughts and prayers will be with you as you go through your surgery, please feel free to write to me and vent or just talk. God Bless