And Now That I'm Better, I'm Dealing With The Scars -.-I carved a big FAT ***** on my tummy a while ago.
It's been months. I mean a LONG time ago. And I still have the scar. It reminds me of a time and place I don't want to go back to. And it makes me feel self conscious too, even if I get healthier and get the body "I want" I'm probably going to have to deal with that scar for a long time.
It hurt so bad when I did it. I couldn't sleep or stretch because it would open up the cuts again.
And I still have the DIE on my right breast and FAT on the left side of my breast *sigh*
Cuts on my hips. Slashes all around. And that's to say I never was big on cutting, and never did TOO much harm, I just have extremely sensitive skin. Gah, it's made me value myself more though. Because I have to look at those scars every single day and see, that I, I was the ONE who did that to my body.
My wrists have scars too but they are mostly gone.
I don't want to cut anymore. And I haven't for a while. I'm proud of that. There's OTHER ways to deal with stress and pain...