Forget And Live

You darling boy, there is hope for you yet. I didn't believe it either, when I was your age. I was the outcast, the target... I cut myself, too. I carved a rose on my left breast and a dagger on my right. They still hold much meaning to me. During a doc visit, my doc saw them and called my mom and I was sent to counseling, which only made matters worse at home. When I was 18 I got a rose and dagger tattooed over my scars. They are precious to me. But after I left highschool, I realized that there's a big world out there, where the ******** and the abusers can't touch you. It seems so hard right now, because your world is still just your family and school, etc... There's so much more! I want to make it clear that expanding your world will not solve your problems. But you can escape the constant reminders and concentrate on YOU. It took me a long time to recover, but having the freedom to do just that, I'm now back in college, pursuing a great degree, and I'm going to change the world, wait and see! **** them, the haters, the bullies, those who deal out suffering to keep their minds off of their own. They are the lost ones, dear. It's ok to feel what you feel. Obviously you feel that way for a reason. The key is how you handle what you feel. Hang in there, and you will see! I promise. Be determined, and not for vengeance, although that's a good motivator at first, but for YOU and NO ONE ELSE! This is YOUR life, not theirs. They only have the power over you that you give them. If their words don't hurt you, they will push harder, but don't let it get to you. When they see that is still doesn't affect you, they no longer have that power over you. You are the one in control. Remember that. =)