The Day My Life Got Turned Upside Down
My last term of high school ever and my ever so perfect life got turned completely upside down. Dumped by my long term boyfriend out of the blue, and sufferring from what my doctors though was just a chest infection and thalessemia(hereditary iron deficiency) I thought life couldn't get any worse. But I just didn't get better... weeks turned into months and Im still out for the count.
The doctors are reluctant to call it chronic fatigue, and say I have the milder post viral fatigue... same thing really. And I hate it... Being home from boarding school Im trying to do my best to hide it from my family, telling them Im fine. But all I want to do is lie in bed all day and all night. I can never get enough sleep. But when I'm lying in bed all I can do is think about how **** everything has suddenly gotten, how I will never get my life back. Whenever I think of high school all I can think about is how this has ruined hat should have been the best term of my life.
And of course there's no end. Some days are good days, some are bad... but I don't want to tell anyone. my friends think Im just a drama queen, getting"depressed" over lost love, and my parents think Im "better". In fact the only person who knows is my ex, but he doesnt seem to care at all about how shatterred my life is
I just want to get out of bed and run again. To be myself