Maybe I'm Just Retarded.

I don't know.

Maybe it's the thought of being with the wrong person that freaks me out. Maybe I'm heartless and unworthy of love. Maybe I can't open up to someone. Maybe I fear being rejected after I express my love. Maybe I'm a wuss. Maybe I'm a *****. Maybe I'm still a little girl not ready to be with a man. Maybe I can't stand the expectations. Maybe I read things the wrong way. Maybe I can't accept they love me for me and not my looks. Maybe I try too hard and lose passion. Maybe I try too little and lose interest?

OR MAYBE I'm just plain retarded.
imsohorridithurts imsohorridithurts
5 Responses Jan 5, 2011

Or Maybe your just to awesome that you have to find someone of equal awesomeness to find balance.

Not at all unusual wonderings! Normal! Watch the movie, "Still Breathing," with Brendan Fraser. and the movie, "How Do You Know," with Reese Witherspoon. (Also the Jane Austen films, just because they are really good, like the 6 hour Pride and Prejudice one.) Think how much harder it would be if you were also very, very wealthy. (Well, you didn't include that in the list, so I am guessing you are not?) Or what if you loved an actor! I've always thought that would be hard! How would you know if the person was only acting!

I love Jane Austen, and I haven't seen 'still breathing' or 'how do you know' but i'll be sure to watch them this summer! :)

Nothing would've mattered to me because I don't have good social skills because I have Aspergers. I've never been in a relationship once in my life.

I feel the same way. Whenever a guy likes me I always wonder why? Is it my looks? I know I'm not the prettiest girl in the world but my appearance is not something I have found to be lacking. But sometimes I wonder, will he always find me attractive? What if I change my look up? Would that affect how he sees me?<br />
I don't know what it is. I mean, I have had (and currently have) a boyfriend, but it's like I get to this certain stage in the relationship where things are going great and all, but my instincts are all screaming "Run! Run! Run!" but I can't logically conceive why. It's not him; it's me. The worst part is that I really do care about him, that I really want this one to work out, but I just end up making excuses to myself about how he's not the one for me, how we don't fit well as a couple, etc. Stupid petty things and I'm looking for an escape route.<br />
I don't want to be this way. Quite frankly, it drives me insane knowing I have this great guy right here, right now, and all I can think about is what it's going to be like when we break up. I'm trying to break that wall down, trying and trying to stop those frustrating doubts and fears from emerging, but it's like trying to stop a reflex.

That's exactly how I feel, omg. I hope things worked out for you :)

Maybe you are still too young. Please give yourself a chance as time is on your side