My Predicament

Now, I had my heart shattered to pieces about 10 months ago... and I truly want love and feel I would have lot's to offer to a partner. I so badly want that feeling. Now I've had men interested in me some whom are very good guys and good to me. but I cannot commit.. It's like I get bored or I'm easily turned off by petty thing's... I'm starting to get lonely. It'd be nice to have someone to share my time with and get to know. Except as soon as it get's to a certain point, I make sure they know i want nothing more then friendship. Unfortunately, This one guy i've been seeing him for a month or so now. I've been so hot and cold like a battle where I feel like I want to be with him and as soon as we do anything relationship like - I get a heavy feeling of impending doom. so I push him away and making it clear I dont want relationship and keep my distance. I'm tired of being that girl, I don't want to be a part of the vicious circle of jerks messing over a nice girl turning her into a commitment -less overly precautious ***** ( <-- How it would seem on the receiving end) making  a perfectly Nice good man into a jerk.  Maybe my best bet is to stay single, to save face of hurting someones feelings. But that still leaves me lonely.
adorablue adorablue
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 9, 2012

Alot of people in your generation are experiencing these same predicaments. This is no reason to distance your self from social interactions. I am no expert but as I'm slowly working through these same questions I have currently found that honesty and openness to to those around you can never lead you wrong. Of course, not everyone has the greatest intentions but you seem to be aware so I suggest don't stress on the "stay single" line and just let good people surround you. I mean our generation seems to be all about "interested in everything, committed to nothing" so find your interests.