Army Medic

My name is John. I am a medic in the us army. Running was everything to me. My prude, strength and happiness. Most notably my happiness. It was my therapy for everything. I would lace up and run 10 20 sometimes 30 miles if I was sad. When my wife left me while deployed I ran everyday. In between missions I'd run. 12 hour mission followed by running for miles around the base. I came back and followed suit. Even was training for something. I wanted to do a 50 mile race and continue ultra marathons. Then it started. My legs would like fall asleep into my runs. I didn't think anything of it. Ankle would be sore k ees would ache I thought it was just running. So I continued on for months. The wake up call for me was the numbness started lasting into the hours after a run. Talked to my pa and he sends me for tests and what not. Well after a few months o physical therapy they tell me they won't recommend surgery. I'm not a combat oriented job I can work in an aide station. This sent me spiraling down. This was 6 months ago and since then I gained 45 pounds. Now the army is a depressing place. Friends die, families suffer. My son is 3 states away and all this adds up to wanting more than what my body can give. I went from 25 to thirty mile recovery run every Sunday to may one mile a day because of the pain. I was suicidal and really depressed. How do you cope from dropping pretty much the only thing that you had left?
Dinomedic Dinomedic
22-25, M
2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

p.s. I lost a lot of weight in the last year since I seem to have been rising out of my 4 year slump and starting to get my confidence back. I'd look up adaptive sports in your area if any, not only will you be physically active... you'll be physically active with people who understand what it is like to have a physical limitation but still want to indulge athletically. It really did help me a lot before I got out. Looking for a team here in Seattle :)

Hi, my name is Arrie, I am a 26 year old veteran and I also have compartment syndrome. Running was definitely a source of freedom and happiness for me. Once I was diagnosed with compartment syndrome and had 2 fasciotomies (over the span of 2 years) to correct it (which were both unsuccessful... the news of never being able to run again, or do strenuous repetitive or high impact work outs with my legs I sunk into a depression and gained weight too. It's been a little over 4 years since my return from Iraq and 2 since my surgeries. I can't say that I don't silently mourn my loss of mobility but I'm not as down as I used to be. Though it still does effect me when i want to join events like a mud run that all my friends are going to or a difficult hike. It does get better... I find pleasure in low impact cardio and upper body weight training and exercises and there are lots of teams with adaptive sports that may surprise you in how it fills the void even if just a little. Just wanted to say keep you chin up and I've been there from one soldier to another.