Icu Ptsd? Is This Real?I relayed this story in the asthma section, but I think I may need to be here...I'm not sure.
I had an asthma attack (the mother of all asthma attacks) on 9/29/10...As for the day it happened, I have only a vague memory of struggling to breathe, then no memory of this event until one week later. I learned what happened ba
At any rate, my husband came home and found me in severe respiratory distress and cyanotic. So, he calls an ambulance and they carted me off to the nearest hospital. My O2 sat was 53%. I was in respiratory failure. I was intubated in the ER, placed on a ventilator and in a drug-induced coma. I spent a week in ICU before I was weaned off of the meds and ventilator. Then a couple more days in the ICU and another week in a "regular room".
I know this doesn't even begin to compare to what many of you have been through, but I have not been the same person since this happened. I've been severely depressed (anti-depressants not working), I often think of the nightmares and hallucinations I had while under whatever psychedelic, LSD-like drugs they had me on...the repetitive noises of all of the machines in the room...awaking to find myself bruised severely (I can only guess I was combative in the ER) and restrained to the bed like little Regan in "The Exorcist". I was delusional coming off of those meds...pissed off over things which never happened, etc., etc.
I should be thankful that I am alive, and sometimes I am...other times, I wish that doctor hadn't "tried so hard". Why can't I get over this? Heck, the most traumatic part (at home and in ER), I don't even remember!!! I've read something on the internet about ICU PTSD...does this really exist???
JulesInBmore 51-55, F 3 Responses 1 May 16, 2012