I Tried to Cry In the Shower So No One Could Hear
but in the shower i felt nothing.
when i got out i began to feel sad again.
but i couldn't go back in "you've HAD two long showers today"
so i cried on my bed, and i felt awful, and it felt good, and i felt awful that it felt good. and i didn't want my dad to hear me sobbing, even though i knew he could.
and then i fell asleep and dreamed nightmares, woke up and went to school.
i don't want this to become my life.