So I Cry
I feel like I'm torn in two most of the time. Between feelings of lonliness and grief and have this new old feeling coming back into my life and sometimes I feel like two different people.
It makes me so miserable and I can't describe how it affects me. Most days I'm okay. I go to work and laugh with my friends, but at night when everyone is asleep or I'm alone in my room, I cry. Sometimes without knowing why. I feel like I can't quite reach that happiness that used to be mine. I can see it, but I just can't reach. Maybe one day I will.