Story Of My Life...

Hi, I'm Emily. :)
I have been a happy person for as long as I can remember. I used to have to physically make myself stop smiling because I was scared I would freak people out, like the Joker. ;)
In Year Seven, I was so happy, it's crazy. I used to go up to people and say hi, even if I didn't know them. I was a fun person, and I had heaps of friends. Now, I only realised this at the beginning of this year... I then started to slowly get quieter. Obviously it was very slow, since I didn't realise it was happening... it's weird. :)
So now, most of the people who I was very close to slowly sopped talking to me, and went their separate ways. I stopped talking to people I didn't know, and became even more of a nerd ;)
I noticed how many people look straight through me, and how there was so much judging going on. At one point I think I might have been close to getting depression, when I was often crying about having no friends, and a few of my close relatives passed away within a short period of time, and my Mum got depression and started smoking again...
Anyway, one of my friends from Year 8 (I'm now in Year 9, nearly Year 10) wrote me a note once saying "A lot of your 'friends' are going to scatter like ants in a rain storm, only the good ones will be left. I am one of those good ants." That's exactly what happened. I only have a few friends now, but they are the best friends I could ever ask for and I wouldn't go back to how it was if I had the choice.
A couple of days ago, I was listening to the song 'Beautiful' by Eminem, and I made a decision. I made the decision to be happy. To simply stop caring about what people thought of me, and be myself. I'm still utterly shy around anyone who I don't know, and I am probably the most awkward person in the world, but I'm happy the way I am, and I have wonderful friends who listen to me, and tell me everything. Happy endings are always good huh. ;)
Thanks for reading! :D
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13-15, F
Dec 11, 2012