I Am Really Needing Some Support Here.

SOlive, in respons to youre call and cry, hereby a short note to comfort you in thougt and mind



being 56 now, i've found myself more or less in control off it. From youre note i get it that you are aware off your self and conditions.

However deep, dark down things and toughts will get, i'll still found it worth to take notice off the life i live because i'm aware off myself.

My life is a strugle, but in that i have found the strenght to live it with far more joy than i see most people doo. With our without DSPS any one will have to face every day as a new experience. Those who close the're eye's and mind in order not to be awere are the ones that missed out. Adapt possibilletys within the limitations and you still can do you're thing. Pill's, needle's, people's only work as far you alowed them to. To great a belief in them weakens youre own strenght.



Peter de Jong - Vlaardingen - Holland

Yes, I say we enjoy it, work together, set up a life that can enjoyably and communably be spent from 4pm to 4am. Who cares if the rest of them don't want to join. As far as enjoying or getting some earlier work or sunlight. I find that sleeping in two shifts is the surest fire solution. I don't do it if I don't have to - but when I do: I go to sleep at 2-6am (it varies depending on tiredness) and wake at 7-8am. Then I take a 2-3 hour nap sometime between noon and 7pm, but not every day, as some days I don't feel tired.

Just saying, weed and needle drugs aren't exactly on the same level, despite what some fear mongers might lead you to believe. I find THC really centers me when I'm sleeping 15 hours a week. Anything in excess is bad, that's when problems arise.



That's just me though. It does different things to different people, and if you have a hardline family or some other situation where hiding that you're doing it is necessary, the stress of that generally isn't worth it.



As far as the depression thing goes, its unfortunately often a side effect of the disorder. Running at 50% all the time is a drag, and people not believing you or taking it seriously gets frustrating over time. You just gotta go with it.



You say you don't want it to control your life by scheduling everything around it, but it honestly controls your life far more when you don't. Being tired, ineffective and aloof all the time sucks infinitely more than living life as a bit of an extreme night owl. You just have to find an environment that fits for you, and its not always quick or easy. Find some night owl friends, try to find something that interests you that's non time dependent. Its a process but in the end its worth it.



Unless you have a minor case that can be helped with a strict adherence to treatment (light therapy, chronotherapy etc), chances are this is a lifelong thing that you simply have to accept.



I said this to someone else on here and I've always tried my best to practice it myself, but when you're faced with a problem, there are really only two outcomes.



If you can do something about it, don't worry about it, because its going get fixed. If you can't do anything about it, you can't do anything about it, so don't worry about it. That's just needless stress that ruins your day.



I feel like I'm rambling now so I'm going to stop, but long story short, you're in this situation and the only thing you can do is make the best out of it. Don't let other people's BS drag you down, and live life on the terms that work for you.

Yea I went to a specialist today and got diagnosed. I've always been a bad sleeper and also went to a specialist when I was nine. Though since I was so young there wasn't much anyone could do about it. It was really helpful this time though as the specialist recognized that it is a serious problem for people who have. He was able to give advice on all the things I could do to try and help with it and he's also going to send me some information on the condition since not everything you find on the internet is necessarily true. Im not sure how much it was cause my mum paid for it lol but if you are interested in that then I would recommend it (wasn't a sleep specialist though, a childrens one lol cause im 15 but yeah) :)

I know what it feels like too with no one else understanding and didn't know about dsps until recently but was happy to find that it wasnt just me lol

I hope you dont turn to the drugs.. yeah I know old person talking here but well, I grew up in the 70's.. it really isnt a healthy choice.. I just realized I have this too.. DSPS and am THRILLED. To finally know what is wrong with me after all these years.. The guilt is/WAS very bad but now I know and the guilt is gone.. I dont beat myself up with it. I raised 3 wonderful children and somehow managed to work full time when they were in high school.. It wasnt easy.. cleaning after everyone was in bed, getting into bed myself about 4:30 am and getting up to see them off to school at 6:30 but I did it for them. I would then sleep with coffee on my lap and wake about 3pm when they got home. My house worked suffered alot but my family came first. Until I realized they could sleep through the vac. and dishes clattering.. My husband didnt really bit** to much so that was also nice. We had our own business and worked around it quite well. Best of luck and enjoy the fact your not lazy : )

i totally know what your going through. I am a college student as well and it's really hard to live a "normal" life. I am taking a night class this semester and am considering taking more as well as taking another online class cause i took one last semester and it was so nice to be able to go through the class at 1am versus 9am. Good luck and I hope you are able to figure this out, cause I'm in the same boat!

about the career thing, i think you should consider being your own boss

that way you can juggle the hours...

it doesn't always work but at least there nobody to report to

(well, except yourself of course)

there are still days you will be cranky and feel like a joint

(me, i take guinnness when feel like this)

but overall you are much better

Hey SOlive 5, I totally relate. I've got pretty much the same deal. Had it for years, and I think my mum and sister would probably think it was bullshit if I brought it up with them. I'd try not to worry about it too much though. I think you should try to accept it, and yourself, and even enjoy the rare perspective you have of the world being a chronic night owl. Definatly don't beat yourself up, your not the only one, and I'm sure you'll be able to do what you want in life. Everyone has to deal with there own problems, one of yours and mine just happens to be this. Take it easy, good luck