My Life

Well, to start off, I've been depressed as long as I can recall, and anxiety has just accompanied it. When I was around 8, my mom became addicted to prescription pain killers, and that started off the split up of my parents. I blamed myself for her problem, and in some ways still do. She's still addicted. About 6 years ago I started messing around with pain killers and psychedelics, and became addicted to benzodiazepenes and opiates. Within the last year, I've been getting more and more detached. I stopped caring about everything. I feel disconnected all the time, and I'm almost constantly in a dream-like state. I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was younger, so that may trigger it, but man, it really feels like I'm losing my mind. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without triggering an attack, and being in public is the same, if not worse. I can't even function, I don't know what to do. Please help.
blueskytincan blueskytincan
18-21, M
1 Response May 22, 2012

Also, I'm no longer on pills or any kind of pharmaceutical at all, and the only psychoactive substance I use is marijuana for my back.