It Was My Husbands Affair That Made Me This Way

When something as intense as an affiar happens to you it questions yourself in so many ways. I have had low self esteem for a long time now, since I put on so much weight when I had my son, when my husband had his affair, being stuck inside all day everyday because I dont have a drivers licence and will never be able to get one because of my epilepsy, having insomnia and having to take medication for the rest of my life. Not being able to go out and party with my friends all night because I will more than likely have a fit the next day.

I feel so lonely all the time, I want someone to talk to that is genuinely interested in how I am and I want someone to come around just for the sake of it. I want to see someone happy to be in my company. I want someone to be my rock and be there for me whenever I need it just like I am for them. 4am I go running to their aid if they need me, 1pm and no one is ther for me. Like any time any place for me and for others it is when they are ready. I am so lucky to have my son because if it wasnt for him; Im sure I wouldnt be here right now.

kate140879 kate140879
26-30, F
Feb 19, 2009