I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues
that is the question ...
i suffer from anxiety and depression (from ptsd mainly, secondary borderline personality disorder, and insomnia) and have had on and off struggles with self-injury and overdosing. because my self injury and suicide attempts have been so severe, i've been on many different medications, i've tried ect, and received a ton of counseling and such. most of my doctors after a while tell me that medications do not help me. for the most part i can never tell whether or not i've taken any, but a lot give me bad side effects. i've had severe sunburning from meds, on and off pituitary tumors, lactation, dizziness, extreme hypertension, hyperactivity and inability to sleep for days and days, burning and allergic reactions, etc. my last doctor had ended me up on effexor and buspar. now i am in between doctors - i don't have a new one yet and don't really want to contact my old one. anyways, lately i have been getting really sick from sweating a ton and getting dehydrated and faint. the endocrinologist is running a bunch of tests but thinks my pituitary tumor may be back (which only comes with certain meds historically). anyway, I was looking up information on the effexor and apparently it has sweating as a side effect - which can only be making this worse - and it can affect thyroid and such - meaning it may be causing whatever hormonal thyroid/pituitary issues. so now i am freaking out, because I really need to stop it medically, but then I don't know what to do to help treat the depression and anxiety. i really don't want to have to call my old doctor, but i guess i will have to. plus i am worried about the withdrawal going off the medication - especially because i have had trouble going off some meds in the past - seizures even. i also have a million other people on my case and live in psych rehab building, so they will be on me about taking the meds and calling the doctor etc. it's just that i go so up and down, and when i'm down or upset/angry etc, I can really do a lot of damage to myself. every so often i take myself off my meds just because i feel like they do so little, and eventually things go haywire. but right now i am so physically sick and tired, and if the psych med is making it worse, i feel like i need to stop it. i just don't know what to do now. plus the last time i had told the doctor the effexor didn't seem to do much, he said we ran out of other options to switch to. so if there aren't any meds i can take, do i just go without meds, or try something that hasn't worked in the past, or what?
i suffer from anxiety and depression (from ptsd mainly, secondary borderline personality disorder, and insomnia) and have had on and off struggles with self-injury and overdosing. because my self injury and suicide attempts have been so severe, i've been on many different medications, i've tried ect, and received a ton of counseling and such. most of my doctors after a while tell me that medications do not help me. for the most part i can never tell whether or not i've taken any, but a lot give me bad side effects. i've had severe sunburning from meds, on and off pituitary tumors, lactation, dizziness, extreme hypertension, hyperactivity and inability to sleep for days and days, burning and allergic reactions, etc. my last doctor had ended me up on effexor and buspar. now i am in between doctors - i don't have a new one yet and don't really want to contact my old one. anyways, lately i have been getting really sick from sweating a ton and getting dehydrated and faint. the endocrinologist is running a bunch of tests but thinks my pituitary tumor may be back (which only comes with certain meds historically). anyway, I was looking up information on the effexor and apparently it has sweating as a side effect - which can only be making this worse - and it can affect thyroid and such - meaning it may be causing whatever hormonal thyroid/pituitary issues. so now i am freaking out, because I really need to stop it medically, but then I don't know what to do to help treat the depression and anxiety. i really don't want to have to call my old doctor, but i guess i will have to. plus i am worried about the withdrawal going off the medication - especially because i have had trouble going off some meds in the past - seizures even. i also have a million other people on my case and live in psych rehab building, so they will be on me about taking the meds and calling the doctor etc. it's just that i go so up and down, and when i'm down or upset/angry etc, I can really do a lot of damage to myself. every so often i take myself off my meds just because i feel like they do so little, and eventually things go haywire. but right now i am so physically sick and tired, and if the psych med is making it worse, i feel like i need to stop it. i just don't know what to do now. plus the last time i had told the doctor the effexor didn't seem to do much, he said we ran out of other options to switch to. so if there aren't any meds i can take, do i just go without meds, or try something that hasn't worked in the past, or what?
By:
Androgosane
Age:
31-35
,
Female
