Low Times ! I Wanna Rip My Skin Out Sometimes

I suffer from this so bady , i get really depressed . And i dont feel good in my skin , i want to just rip it out . I can get really compulsive sometimes , or i wont do something cause i always think something bad is going to happen . 

 

I DONT FEEL RIGHT IN MY BODY , I FEEL LIKE THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME . 

my friends think im okay and tell me everyone loves you , but that doesnt help at all . 

I can't help the way i feel anymore , i used to be normal . 

BUT IM NEVER GOING TO FEEL LIKE THAT AGAIN 

:( ME

SOMETIMES I PUT ON A HAPPY FACE BUT PEOPLE DONT KNOW AT ALL 

lucylost lucylost
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 8, 2010

you and me both

I see another comment you made that you are young,but feel old. I know how you feel. Took ,me 30 years to finally feel my age (50), Looking back through the years from a wiser set of eyes, I know better what happened to me. Why I felt so different. It is precisely that! You ARE different. Not made from a cookie cutter. But still don't understand your special value. People like you and me and thousands more like us contribute to the world in a sweeter, more tender way. We feel things deeper and harder. That's why we feel so misunderstood. Acceptance of who and what we are is slow and sometimes painful. You are not, nor have you ever been alone. I was told once by a psychiatrist That people often hate themselves by their skin. She thought that of me because of my tattoos. I just like tattoos though! LOL Please cheer up. Write me if you want to.