When I was a little girl, I was a daddy's girl. Nothing could keep us apart. When I was 4 years old, my world turned. My dad was an alcoholic. One night dad and mother had a fight. He threw things and screamed. He told us to get out. We did.

I think that my mother and father splitting up has a lot to do with my depression. I remember a lot of bad things that went on when I was a child. I have been through self mutilation. I cut myself for a year. I can't promise anyone I won't ever do it again. But I am trying to stop. I don't like being judged and put into the "crazy" category because I make myself bleed. All I can say is I don't think that unless you have been a cutter you can fully understand it.

I have mood swings. A lot of things trigger my depression like being in a dark, cluttered, or stuffy room. I am meticulous. Everything has its place. I like in a single wide with 3 other people, so you can imagine how cramped we are. I just do not have room for all of my things. I have totes stacked in my room. Looking at clutter stresses me out.

As far as meds go, I don't take them. I'm not on anti-depressants. I take a xanex once in a while. But I don't want to rely on a pill to make me happy.

I have had depression problems for a few years. I hope I can meet people that know how I feel. I want to meet people with positive attitudes, someone that can help pull me out of my depression.

katierae414512 katierae414512
13-15, F
Feb 11, 2010