My Battle Goes On And On

It started when I was young, I grew up feeling very unloved and I thought no one cared about me. I spent alot of time crying myself to sleep. I got bullied in school and spent alot of time alone, It was like nobody wanted to be around me in school i felt very lonely. I never formed friendships growing because I was hardly aload to play out. I got pregant when I was 17 just to get away from my family. My baby father cheated on me all the time and only seem to care about other girls, Then he slept with my bestfriend. I met this guy who I had a big crush in school he just played me and I fell so in love with him and nealcoholicver have got over him. I met someone else he beat and raped me. Then I met alcoholic and that never went to good. I think to myself is there something wrong with me? Why is it so hard to find love? What have I done wrong in my life? Why me. I try so hard to make life better for myself but nothing ever goes right. I feel so alone I don't know what to do.
Sweetways Sweetways
31-35, F
Jan 18, 2013