"who Is Filful?" The Person Behind The Posts...

Hi all, I've noticed it's been a while since anyone's posted new stories on this page. I guess that's the hard thing with disease; you feel crummy enough to having to deal with it within the confines of your own home/room, but vocalizing it and saying it aloud only reminds you of the pain and makes you feel worse. In a way, it feels almost exhausting to post sometimes, or to get oneself to comment on others' stories-- not because we don't want to post, but because the condition, in and of itself, is rather draining.

So I'm not gonna talk about that right now. We have a lot of posts about the pain and emotional frenzy we suffer through-- these are good for expression, but I though I'd mix it up and talk about something completely different, to get our minds off of it.

Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I've been on this board for almost 6 months now; I hope my posts have helped people, but I'm sure there might be some people out there wondering, "who is filful"?

I'm a senior in college, majoring in biology and hoping to get into medical school. I actually just took my MCATs a few weeks ago... brutal! For those of you who are not familiar with this exam, it is the medical school admissions test: 6 hours of testing, covering biolgy, physics, general chemistry, organic chemistry, verbal skills and essay skills. Fun stuff? Maybe not. But I'm glad it's over with. Just anxiously waiting for my scores now.

I also play the guitar. I've been playing since I was in the 7th grade, and when I got to high school I advanced onto an electric. Now I play in a jazz band in college and it's a lot of fun; I get to meet all kinds of cool, quirky and talented musicians. It takes me away from the stressful, structured pre-medical program into a much more laid-back and groovy atmosphere :) I must say, I have a thing for musicians. There's something very light-hearted and whimsical about their lifestyle (hopefully, part of which is drug-free).

I chose the name 'filful' because filful is Lebanese for 'jasmine bud'. It's a nickname my parents used to give me when I was little. I may have outgrown it but I think it's a good alias, from time to time :-)

What else is new? Hmm... Oh. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, but ultimately I think it was for the best. I'm doing okay right now; my friends have been really good and have been taking me out, keeping me busy. There's nothing like a good group of friends to get you through even your toughest times. I'm surprised at how much I could open up myself to them, and how accepting and responsive they were.

So there! A little snippet of my life. For those of you who are interested, my skin has been behaving itself, as have I *knock on wood*. I've had a lot of relapses recently, so if you ever want to talk about it, just shoot me a message on this site.


filful filful
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 11, 2010

Hi filful,<br />
Thanks for all of your posts. They are definitely helpful. I visit this site a lot and always like to see new activity. I've posted a few times, and I have a lot more to say but I am lazy/busy with other things, but I will post them soon! <br />
Also, congrats on taking the MCAT! I took it last summer. It was fun times. Almost as fun as applying, which is what I'm doing this summer. <br />
Well, I'll leave it at that for now. Best of luck with everything! <br />
Sincerely, slomodove