A Sort Of Revelation.

i've found that picking is my body's attempt to break from reality, whether that desire be conscious or subconscious. when i pick, i am void of all thought; my soul focus is the action at hand (haha! unintended pun). in other words, picking for me, is nearly hypnotic. i'm beginning to see my picking as an unfortunate result of my ever-restless demeanor. don't know if any of you can relate to that or not?
flordelmar flordelmar
22-25, F
5 Responses Dec 6, 2012

Wow. I could not have said it better.

Totally. Like to see it as the neuroticism of a highly strung highly creative highly intelligent person ;). Actually think I'm pretty right there - ha ha sign of modesty too perhaps. Would be good to learn to zone out without the destruction bit tho...
Just occurred to me whether actually it's a way of communicating how actually I'm not really so perfect as well as just been plain dead nice to do :)))


Yes. Just yes.
I lie in my bed and I just stare at the ceiling zoned out, picking. I can do it for hours at a time and it just relaxes me at the time but afterwards I'm horrified at the blood in my hair.

how often do you scratch?