I Have Dermatillomania
I just found out today that the damage i've been doing to my skin for years is called dermatillomania. And I also found out that a lot of other people do this too. I started by picking at my scalp when i was about 10 or 11....and i still do it now. it doesnt bother me too much because it isn't an obvious thing...my hair covers any scabs or scars.
I started to pick at my back when i was 12, and still do this as well. I have gotten to the point that i can just run my fingers along my shoulders and back, and feel where i should pick. any tiny imperfection gets it. I pick at my face too...it's not as bad as my back really. I only have a few scabs going at one time, and I can cover it with make-up. but when it's a big area, or a lot of scabs at once i feel like some sort of freak.
My newest obsession has been picking at my legs. Right now they are really kinda scary looking. and they hurt. a few are infected, but i still pick at em.. i can't stop. I'm not sure how to go about stopping. I pick when i am bored, stressed, or anywhere near a mirror. I find picking at my legs convienient because I don't need the mirror. I don't understand why I do this, or how to stop. does anyone have any ideas, or similar experiences?
