Now The Clues Fit Together

As a little girl, I was nick-named by "Picky-lips" by my family for constantly picking and biting skin off my lips. I also bit and picked my fingernails, toenails and peeled the skin off my feet, which I used to save in a little box but never told anyone. 

When I was 11 years old, I started cutting and showing signs of depression. My mom had never even heard of such a thing until she grew suspicious of my skin concealment. Throughout the rest of my life, I cut on and off, each episode getting particularly worse, and my compulsive picking of the scabs left me with some pretty permanent damage. I have been taking medication since I was 15, but no matter what state of life I am in, the compulsive picking has always been with me. 

I am now 18 years old, a college drop-out, and although I am an attractive young female I have a continuous problem with picking at blemishes when they appear, continue to pick and rip the skin on my lips, obsessively tweeze short eyebrow hairs and pluck stray eyelashes, pick the skin around my nails, on the bottom of my feet and any scab I can find on my body. I even use tweezers to pick and remove anything inside my nose, to the point of scabs forming which I continuously pick to the point of bleeding and pain.

Looking back on everything today, it all fits. I have dermatillomania. 

jmulls jmulls
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

you are not alone i have it too! please comment on my story?

Thank you so much for sharing! I'm new on this site and for 18 years I'd thought I was a crazy person and I almost want to cry in relief knowing I'm not alone. I hope someday we'll be able to conquer this.