Finally Found Answers...

Hi All,

I was so shocked to happen upon this site.  All these years not knowing other people had the same condition or that there was even a name for this!!!  Wish I would have known this sooner, because I have been picking since the age of 12 and now I'm 37.  My childhood was filled with traumatic events; deaths, abuse, etc.  I focus on my face, arms, chest, back, butt, legs, and it seems to come and go in cycles.  I have felt so much shame with this and always thought I was strange.  I keep my problem areas covered, but it has been a source of untold embarrassment.   

I'm in a long distance relationship and fear one day he'll spontaneously surprise me and see my picked skin before it heals.  I always wonder he'd dump me, but I know deep down he wouldn't, it's just my self-esteem has been so impacted by this.  I really have to set my mind to the healing process, but have decided enough is enough and I AM going to beat this even if I have to handcuff myself!!  I'm NOT going to abuse myself anymore, because I am a worthy person!! 

Here are some things that do help me: 

WILLPOWER - Sometimes I'll go into the trance and have to *willfully* (NOT easy) snap myself out of it before succumbing.  I try to remain conscious of my unconscious actions.

INFRARED SAUNA - helps to hasten the healing process, rid skin of toxins that cause acne, fades scars, and it feels great.  One can also burn up to 600 calories in 30 minutes!

CLARISONIC SKIN CARE BRUSH - Pricey, but it helps to minimize the pores and blackheads on my face.  It truly makes a difference.

APPLE CIDER VINEGAR (organic...Braggs is a good one) - Kills bacteria, helps remove dead skin cells, but it smells like hell.  Will make your skin turn fire engine red, but it's been really helpful with healing.

FLAXSEED OIL (with highest lignans) -  Will help heal skin from inside out.

VITAMIN C  - I take a powered form of Vitamin C (from Bronsons Vitamins...good quality) and consume large amounts.  Also helps my skin from the inside out and bolsters my immune system.  Up dosages gradually or you'll have an accident.

VITAMIN E - helps to heal from inside out.  Do not take large amounts, as it can cause high blood pressure.  Amounts should be increased very slowly over time.  Helps the heart, circulation, and my spider veins are disappearing as an added benefit!!!  Topical application will also help scars.

BIO OIL - I don't know what's in this stuff, but it helps fade scars.

DOUBLE-ENDED BLEMISH EXTRACTOR - I'm not encouraging anyone to pick, but if you must pick your face this tool will help reduce scarring if used correctly.  Can be found at Sephora.

((((HUGS)))) to everyone who thought they were alone.  Finding this site has boosted my willpower and spirits; gave me such peace of mind to find others like me.  We can kick this thing!!! :D

bubblelights bubblelights
36-40, F
Mar 3, 2010