I Know I Should Do Something....

I was diagnosed about 3 years ago, and I tried, I really tried, to do something about it.  But I failed.  Totally failed.  I don't check my sugars, I don't watch what I eat, the only concession I make to this crapshoot at all is take my pills religiously.  I just cant get over how MAD I am to have to put up with this disease, I feel sick when I think about it,  I want to have something tangible to be angry with, something that will yell back and that I can hit. 

But it's all me.  I did it to myself, I am still doing it to myself, and I am to blame for not helping myself.  How pathetic is that?

newkid newkid
26-30, F
3 Responses Jun 17, 2007

I'm right there with you! Not checking with the meter, and See-Food Diet.

I know how you feel. I just found out I have gestational diabetes...I have known I could get diabetes and since i had it 5 years ago when I was pregnant with ym first son... adn did nothing to lose some weight and her I am needed insulin, what have I done... I'm worried about my health and the health of my unborn baby... it's all my fault I"m so shocked and disappointed in my body at my self.. I've done this to myself... but you know I'm gonna do something about this I'm gonna beat it, I don't want to take a back seat I don't want to be the 35 year old with kidney failure..and going blind..to fight is not an option for me.I'm gonna do it! <br />
I hope you can find it within yourself to fight too.

It's easy to get depressed or feel negative about struggling with a life term disease such as this. It runs in my family. I have to be careful myself. But take a moment to think of the possibilities if you continue to be non-compliant in your care. You could end up in a diabetic coma, have unhealing wounds that lead to limb amputation, or higher cholesterol that sets off a domino effect of numerous added complications. I give you credit for be being honest with yourself in knowing what you're doing wrong or right! Give yourself that same credit, and make SMALL daily changes. You'd be amazed at how the LITTLE changes can make a BIG difference! For instance, my mom has found she can be a diet controlled diabetic merely by eatting one serving of green beans a day! That's not to say that works for everyone, but it does her. Find the little stuff that works for you! But Dear, you gotta check that sugar everyday at first to find out what's working! lol. Cause if you don't, you might find yourself in a hospital where THEY WILL put you on their diet plan... and that's enough to make you want to croak!