I Am Indirectly Telling People Whats Going On.There are 2 people who know about this...other personality/whatever it is of mine. I actually discovered that one of my close friends is skitzo....hes told me hes been being followed by...some kind of shadow man....this includes hallucinations....
So, i felt like there was a bit of a comfort zone, so i told him about it. He didnt hate me or shun me, he also knows about my past.......then he told me about his and "we" arent sure if we want to keep talking to him..... its WAY TO IRONIC. He also went to the doc for the hallucinations, and the doc told him basically to **** off because "anyone can look at the symptoms and feel like they have it" ok, thats awesome, WHAT IF we were AWARE of it, BEFORE WE KNEW THE SYMPTOMS. Id like to know how anyone with a mental disorder gets help.
so, im not going to get help....because i dont want the same speech, for something ive been experiencing for over 10 years. I didnt even have access to ANYTHING that would even make me THINK i maybe have D.I.D. It was actually suggested to me recently. I will go....if it starts interfering with my life.
Anyway, so lately we both have been trying to portray ourselves more. Ive been buying clothes that he likes, and incorporating it into what im wearing. Ive also painted my fingernals on each hand seperate colors.....and im going to be getting one blue contact.
Its fun, and its indirect. It makes us both comfertable and happy, and people dont ask questions because im already generally eccentric.
I started doing it when i felt like everyday was a struggle, and i was basically fighting with myself.
Now everyone happy, and thats good enough for me......unfortunatly i feel like thats only for now though.
Just thought id share.